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Hmmm lets see what to talk. Ok , talk about study. Pmr is just around the corner and i haven't start studying. OMG. I can't imagine i sitting inside the hall doing the papers. *nervous* My timetable seriously is so useless. I can't follow it. ARGH! I promise myself to follow the timetable. I CAN DO IT! Trust myself ;) rules for myself.
Timee to emo now. SIGH! I have not text with alice for a few days and start to miss her already. =/ how to wait until one month? never think of that. ;] hmm its okayy lah actually. i'm glad to have her. :))

The weird alone feeling =[

I don't know if anyone has ever felt this way before. ;[

I fell sad. I need to tell someone , i need to be able to talk to people. Often people talk to me , tell me everything , they seek comfort and understanding. But what about me? Why can't i find someone i can open up to? i just want to talk to someone xD but i lock people out , i hide my feelings. Because no matter how open i seem or how happy i seem , i'm not in my real way. I just want to be able to talk to someone without feeling like they don't care , pity me and so on. I feel stupid admitting it. Every time i try to talk to someone i just end up saying something else.

It make me feel desperate in some strange incomprehensible way. I have no idea how to explain it. Because it's a feeling. I just confused myself. I think i made no sense. Am i crapping too much? LOL