My immortal - Evanscence

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

Press this link to listen.. Enjoy listening! (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bU9FwP4uOY8

Things still remain as usual.

I lose a very good friend , she was a friend that knew a lots about my personal things. We shared our laughter , tears and everything. But she's no longer here with me. Maybe it was my fault for everything i did. I'm too over for being in that rude way. I'm so sorry , but i had tried my best to do everything i can. I know you turned your back to me. I know you hates me a lot and i went through a very bad life for this. We're not texting each other either. I really hoped you will reply me , but then you did not. OKAY FINE!! I'll not wait for your msg anymore but forever i will hold you in my memory. I'm not everything i wish i could be , but i'm everything i need to be. I'll never regret a fcuking thing because everything that's happened to us was either out my hands or exactly what you ever wanted. And i won't turn back for that friendship. We're over. Nothing will never change in my past. I'll just keep looking forward for my future. Thanks you guys for advised me all this while. [meichelle , eewei , yithing & tiff]

no name.

actually, i got nothing to say. just yi thing asked me to update my blog. so, i'm here yi thing.
i just got few things to say. first, you you and you. you know who're you lah.
you're just too over. i just speechless with you. want scold you also can't.
hmms, i hope everyhing you do will make everyone happy and not sad.
&& you know dot dot loves you so much. just dk why you want like that treat dot dot.
no regrets? hmms, just wanna tell you that 'opportunity seldom knocks twice.'
GRAB IT NOW! BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

you were my first (:

Let me start of with two great friends of mine.
they were so friendly till idk how to express out.
they makes me laugh, smile and everything.
you were the first friend, i sleep over with.
you were the first friend, i sleep with.
you were the first friend, who makes me realise what friendship really means.
you were the first friend, who took me to somewhere far away.
you were the first friend, who took me into the haunted house and shouted like hell.
you were the first friend, who always reminds me about everything even though i got no credit.
you were the first friend, who text with me until late night.
you were the first friend, who told me that i can recess with you when i'm totally alone.
you were the first friend, who teached me loci.
friends are too prefect but some don't.
some friends leaves their old friends to mixed with their new friends when they found a better one.
isn't it true enough?
its hurts when you saw a picture full of her friends and none of your picture were in there.
"we will never miss the water till the well is dry"

random

Hmmm lets see what to talk. Ok , talk about study. Pmr is just around the corner and i haven't start studying. OMG. I can't imagine i sitting inside the hall doing the papers. *nervous* My timetable seriously is so useless. I can't follow it. ARGH! I promise myself to follow the timetable. I CAN DO IT! Trust myself ;) rules for myself.
Timee to emo now. SIGH! I have not text with alice for a few days and start to miss her already. =/ how to wait until one month? never think of that. ;] hmm its okayy lah actually. i'm glad to have her. :))

The weird alone feeling =[

I don't know if anyone has ever felt this way before. ;[

I fell sad. I need to tell someone , i need to be able to talk to people. Often people talk to me , tell me everything , they seek comfort and understanding. But what about me? Why can't i find someone i can open up to? i just want to talk to someone xD but i lock people out , i hide my feelings. Because no matter how open i seem or how happy i seem , i'm not in my real way. I just want to be able to talk to someone without feeling like they don't care , pity me and so on. I feel stupid admitting it. Every time i try to talk to someone i just end up saying something else.

It make me feel desperate in some strange incomprehensible way. I have no idea how to explain it. Because it's a feeling. I just confused myself. I think i made no sense. Am i crapping too much? LOL